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I Know it Hurts.

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that no one has done before and no one will copy
throughout human existence, and if nothing else,
you will be remembered
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[23 Nov 2007|02:58am]
Dear Livejournal,
It has been approximately 3.5 years since I've wriiiitten in you! AND I FEEL LIKE SAYING HI!
And maybe starting back up again? Lightly? Who knows.

MY LIFE:
I'm in college. Framingham State College. Double concentration Fashion Design and Merchandising. Straight A's right now, which is faaaab.
My boyfriend is fantastic. Kevin Stanley Ela. New-ish relationship. He is amazing and I love him so much.
My family life is decent. Mom and I are getting along famously. Lauren and I are iffy. Kaity and I don't talk. I have no father. Heh.
I miss my friends way too much. But I've met a few cool people at Framingham.
I work at Anthropologie almost full-time. Make good money. Am constantly tired because I don't have any time to sleep once you factory in classes.
I drink occassionally, smoke when drunk, do drugs very rarely, but in a sizeable amount when applicable, and am fairly content with my life! Minus the constantly being tired part. But, Tab Energy helps.

OH AND my computer is broken but I have a fantastic, shiny and new and gold and prettttty Blackberry Curve!
moments wasted without you

[04 Mar 2005|10:47pm]
updating lj is wicked lame. so i'm not gonna bother with a play by play.

i'm sure you'll be so upset.
2...moments wasted without you

[26 Feb 2005|04:27pm]
alright. so I'm definitely lacking in the updating thing. whatever, it's not like anyone reads this anyways.

I'm a failure, apparently. Sweet. My life is complete.
Way to make me want to die. Asshole.

Whatever. I understand that people take their anger out on the only people they aren't particularly threatened by.
Must be a power trip.
Understandable.

Today is 6 months for Nick and I. I'm happy. I don't get to see him today though. Or tomorrow. Monday is the Taste of Chaos concert, so I'm not hanging out with him afterschool. Tuesday he's working. But Wednesday, I suppose, we'll hang out.

I'm babysitting in an hour and a half..so I might as well shower.

I think I might dump this journal soon..maybe start an authentic one, in a compo or something.
sigh.
3...moments wasted without you

[19 Feb 2005|09:43pm]
I'm tired. But whats the point of being on vacation if you don't stay up late?

Precisely.
1...moments wasted without you

[17 Feb 2005|06:10am]
show me how you do it, and I promise you, I promise that I'll run away with you..

:)
moments wasted without you

[15 Feb 2005|06:33pm]
I've had the absolute worst headache all day..but oh well.

So today was fun. :) And now I'm on the phone so I don't wanna type.
moments wasted without you

[12 Feb 2005|11:03am]
Interclass plays are today. Go. I'll love you forever :)

They start at 7pm at the highschool. It's only a few dollars to get in. It'll be a good time. I swear.

yeah. we got report cards the other day. I got a 3.7. Not too bad. I was surprised that I even passed some of my classes..considering I don't do anything in them.

eh. today's going to be a long day..
moments wasted without you

[10 Feb 2005|06:53pm]

I don't hate valentines :)
3...moments wasted without you

[07 Feb 2005|03:23pm]
When crackwhores attack!Collapse )
6...moments wasted without you

[05 Feb 2005|04:21pm]
Things I hate:
Having family get togethers RUINED by my sister and her boyfriend.
Having weekends ruined by my sister and her boyfriend
Not knowing what's wrong with Nick
People being dicks at rehearsals
Reading people's old journal entries
Specific people in general
EVERYTHING.

blah.I'm gonna cry.
2...moments wasted without you

[05 Feb 2005|10:22am]
you make me feel like dancing
I wanna dance the night away
1...moments wasted without you

[31 Jan 2005|08:36pm]
NOW I remember why I don't like hanging out with people anymore. whatthefuck(as nick would say)

But besides my HATRED for the human race, things are going well. I guess my baby sister wants a divorce from my dad..sigh. Oh young'ns.

But..eh. this was the lamest update ever.


I hope I have gym 2nd period.
2...moments wasted without you

[30 Jan 2005|01:10am]
I feel like I don't have any friends anymore.
Yesterday made me sad. A little reminder of something.
What happened to friends being there to be friends, and not just rely on you when they need something from you?
No one really bothers to talk to me(besides Nick), unless they want me to do something for them. I really miss having friends that actually cared how I was doing or feeling or whatever. I'm going through alot, and it would be nice to have someone to talk to.
I don't know what's going on with all of these people. Everyone is drifting. I haven't hung out with a friend in over 2 weeks, it's always with Nick. Not that I don't like hanging out with Nick, because I love him..but it would be nice if people cared.

I'm losing everyone.
16...moments wasted without you

[29 Jan 2005|11:15pm]
01. Name:
02. Age:
03. Where on earth do you live:
04. What makes you happy:
05. What have you been listening to lately:
06. Do you enjoy reading my LJ:
07. If so, why:
08. Interesting fact about you:
09. Are you in love at the moment:
10. Favorite destination:
11. Favorite quote:
12. Will you post this in your LJ:
3...moments wasted without you

[29 Jan 2005|05:08pm]
[ mood | SPANISH!!!! ]

I smell like I rolled around with a Mexican...

and somehow my taco bell always end up being crunchy where...crunchy things are totally unnessescary. It's a tad unnerving.

I've finally come up with a little resolution for this year..just a bit late =)
I want to stop letting people take advantage of me. I need to learn how to say no to favors that I don't want to do. I need to stop being so trusting and so eager and so...naive. I thought about this last night..and I think I've finally figured things out. Not a great thing, but definitely not a bad thing either.

I have to wash the spicy stench off of my hands, and brush it off of my teeth.
I wish mexican food didn't appeal to my spanish persona. sigh. I'm way to hispanic for my own good. Anyone have some salsa I can get down to?


...or not.

5...moments wasted without you

[28 Jan 2005|10:57pm]
I made nick a present..
and I really hope he likes it.




Put your arms around me.
What you feel is what you are
and what you are is beautiful..
3...moments wasted without you

[27 Jan 2005|10:07pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

..and you should be so proud of yourself. i don't know why, but it made me so incredibly happy<3


so my mom FINALLY got the money my dad owed in child support/medical.(somewhere around $15,000)
it's about fucking time.

I am so happy today. Midterms were easy. Tomorrows should be as well.

Nick. You made my night. I don't know why I bother to say it considering the fact that it applies to practically every night. And just so you know, the thing that you're thinking wasn't the only thing that made me happy. There were so many things as well. I just want you to know.

2...moments wasted without you

[25 Jan 2005|06:28am]
midterms todizzle fizzle.

mhmm foo'. das right.

Imma go slap some kinky ass bitches up...

..you know how I roll
moments wasted without you

[22 Jan 2005|09:12pm]
Wonderwall..hmmCollapse )
2...moments wasted without you

[19 Jan 2005|10:33pm]
best kind of love in the world:When you can fall asleep in someone's arms, wake up, and not realize you had actually been asleep for a half hour.

Me-"Nick. were you just asleep?"
Nick-"uhh. nope"
Me-(glancing at tv) "oh THIS movie? I must have been asleep!"
Nick-"yea, you were."

that's love.
10...moments wasted without you

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